Happy New Year

Well its a new year and I am in the house feeling some kind of way. This year i did not make resolutions that i knew would only make it til the end of the week. I am just living this year and trying to be a better me. Change what i can and finally accept the things that i cannot. Cause i dont want to be unhappy focusing on the negative. So ill just make a list of things i want to improve one thing i hope to get over soon is comparing myself to others why this is so hard im not sure. Its like i can never be totally happy with my life always looking at the next person feeling like why cant that be me or i have that. I did not go out for new years eve and i didnt really care about doing it anyway i just wasnt in the right mindset and i must be when i go out to have the patience to deal with crazy people and the whole thing. I do want to be more social this year meet new people but also better my relationship with some i already know but i dont want to force anything.